It's over

So Tristan gave me the talk. And explained he is done with trying to keep us the family. It's crushing, however this is the second time for certain that he is indicated he can't do it so I I am going to take his word for it.

eyes wide open

although tris and I get into our disagreements and arguments. ive been in the hospital since Monday, and my husband hasn't come to visit me once, not calling me too often. and I really feely like I am working for our marriage.
I don't know what to do at times.


thank God for mom. eventhough I don't always agree with her messages, I know her deepest intentions are the best for me and my family.


just today i have to say, was the first time i really thought that we may not be together forever.


i know that he is stressed out, as i am. it doesn't help when he speaks to me with negative tones.


just i don't feel any emotion from him over the phone. i don't hear him saying that he misses me so much.nothing. hes not perfect, neither am i.

Saved by chloe , September 12 night

Tristan went out with his work colleagues and came back late,I was getting tired and he came  to sleep in our bed which never happens unless you know… The next thing you know I hear Chloe coming  down the hall and it made me so happy LOL

First contract talk

So I finally womaned up and called Brian. I just had to let them know what I was planning and hopefully he can get the ball rolling so I can make this transition as smooth as possible I can get back to being the money making beast that I know I can be.

Surexdirect

This could be an opportunity of a lifetime. I am completely open and optimistic to all that I could bring to my life and my families. The gentleman I spoke to the other day named Matt is one of the co-owners of the business. We had a really great conversation and have me preliminary steps to meet next month. Based on his model of insurance and the companies he will be having I believe my income potential is exponentially possible.

Through my visualizations I believe this opportunity will allow me and my family to live the life of our dreams. And my mind this includes travel homes experiences. I believe my marriage will become stronger and closer and later. I believe that we will be able to share our opportunities with our closest friends and family.

I visualize going to work looking fabulous feeling fabulous and confident walking into my office happy and excited but the day completing and exceeding all my goals for the day having a wonderful relationship with my coworkers accelerating my career to its fullest potential getting financial freedom. Becoming financially responsible as well as enjoying life setting goals maximizing on lessons learned.

142.5

Feeling amazing, loving life. Paid my $200 registration for RPM training today. So it's officially on. I'm excited it's crazy but it's good it's all good. I'm proud of myself, and I am proudof the example I'm setting for my kids where it comes to fitness.

40 😳😳😳😳😳😳

A little more than six months to go. On one hand it's just another day on the other it's a rather big milestone. 

What's interesting is my 35th birthday and how much is change since then. I've moved got married had children. What a ride. All I can say is by the grace of God I've been able to make it so far and be blessed with the love around me.

I am looking forward to the rest of my life of course. My marriage raising  my children building my career.

What I want for this upcoming decade is to become debt-free, going vacation, create wealth, build our pensions, and stimulate our children and all ways.